Friday, May 22, 2009

What i doing during this holiday?


I feel bored during this semester break not only because not job but have no idea where should i go.. Rot in room for about 2 weeks already like a zombie until i forget what day is today.. Sometimes go online at petrol station to spend my time.. But luckily i can spend some time to clear my house.. Recycle the book that used before, that is so many.. Several box and yet still a lot not yet pack.. The book is my siblings but mostly is mine.. Just realize that i'm so hardworking when childhood.. A lot exercise and reference book i got for that time.. Be ashamed of now because i'm so lazy if compare before.. Haha.. Time have change a lot things, i also change a lot already..

Friday, May 15, 2009

Been challenged


I can't doing anything to remedy.. I been challenged, this time i loss all of my confident.. Full confidence at beginning when facing the problem but at last ended with scars.. Despondency and sigh in despair.. What can i do now?

Thursday, May 14, 2009

Sigh


Midnight 2am, heavy rain outside, do you coverlet yourself well? So miss you now.. Suddenly feel qualm, a lots apprehension and I can’t do anything.. Maybe I’m too sensitive but there are.. Suffering cough and I feel painful now even just take medicine.. Every night hardly to sleep and can’t sleep well.. I been coughed for two weeks already but haven’t recover yet.. Haiz..

Sunday, May 10, 2009

8 lies scatters by Mothers

1. When childhood, the young boy family is very poor, when eats meal, the food always insufficiently to eats, the mother apportions her bowl in food the child to eat. The mother ask their children eat quickly, I am not hungry! - - the mother scatters first lies.

2. When the boy growing, his mother commonly used Sunday relaxation time goes to buy fish for their the children to make up the calcium. The children eat fish's time, the mother gnaws the fish bone in the one side, licks on the fish bone's meat with the tongue to soak. The boy loves dearly, clamps own bowl in fish in the mother bowl, asks the mother to eat the fish. The mother does not eat, the mother uses the chopsticks to clamp the fish in boy's bowl. The mother said that the child, eats quickly, I do not like eating the fish! - - the mother scatters second lies

3. During school, in other to give suffices school expenses, the mother goes to the residents' committee to get the matchbox taking the goods home and has made some money for home use. In once winter, the boy wake at midnight and saw the mother's body is sticking the matchbox under the oil lamp. The boy said that the mother to rest, tomorrow morning you have to go to work. The mother smiles and said to the child, rests quickly, I am not sleepy! - - the mother scatters third lies

4. College entrance examination year, the mother asked for leave stands daily to participate and to lead a cheer. When brings forth the midsummer, the hot sun overhead, as soon as the tenacious mother stands under the hot sun is several hours. The test ended with the bell sound, the mother has moved forward to meet somebody hands over a cup to soak the good strong tea with the preserving jar to urge the child to drink, the tea was also thick, the sentiment was thicker. Is looking at the lip which and the full head's beads of sweat the mother splits, boy's instead hands over hand in preserving jar invites the mother to drink. The mother said that the child, drinks quickly, I am not thirsty! - - the mother scatters four lie  

5. After the father pass away, father responsibility become mothers', she have to closed right up against herself to suffer great hardships in tailoring society that meagre incomes to pulling several children, give them education, the day passed is miserable beyond description. Under the alley street intersection telephone pole repairs the table after Uncle Li knows, the important matter minor matter picks a quarrel hits a helper, moves the coal, selects carries water, delivers a land tax to help out financially the boy in the family. The person non-vegetation, who can be heartless. The friends and neighbors watch with the tail of eye regarding this, bear in mind, urges the mother to remarry, why painstakingly oneself. However the mother actually has maintained one's moral integrity for many years, does not marry throughout, others urge again, the mother also decidedly does not listen, the mother said that I do not love! - - scatters five lie       

6. After the boy and sibling graduated and starts to work, came off sentry duty the mother has suspended the stall maintenance life at the neighbor agricultural market fair. The body after the outside areas work's children knew frequently remits money to subsidize the mother, the mother does not want firmly, and refuse to take. The mother said that I am enough to spend! - - scatters six lie

7. The boy had been admitted to done famous university's postgraduate candidate, after the graduation, keeps a foreign scientific research institution work, the treatment is nice and the condition has been good, the boy wanted to meet his mother and bring her there but declined by his mother. The mother said that I am not familiar with it! - - scatters seven lie     

8. In old age, the mother has contracted serious illness and has been admitted to the hospital. The boy rush back and saw his mother suffocated after the technique. The mother has been old, looks at the mother who is suffered by illness suffers extreme distress, the boy is being deeply grieved with flowing tears. The mother said to the child, do not cry, I am not sore. - - scatters last lies



Just want to say Happy Mothers Day to the mother of the world especially to my beloved mother.. Thanks mum and I love you..
P/s: Condolence to my friend that lose his mother today.. To others, remember to show filial obedience before too late..

Friday, May 8, 2009

Bleeding feeling


Gull myself, it still in existence, tears constantly drop down.. I don’t want to tell apart, I don’t wan to accept but endure; pretend don’t know and don’t understand.. How to stop the fade? I don't know what to do now.. I totolly don’t like this feeling but still have to face it now.. Why me again? WHY? Haiz..

Thursday, May 7, 2009

Home sweet home


Finally I reach home after suffer several hours in the bus.. I can’t sleep properly and feeling uncomfortable when in bus just now because the bus like sea rover keep shaking.. Qualm and funk.. This feeling incomprehensibility such a bad sign.. Haiz.. Just hope everything will be fine even get intensive body pain now.. Hopefully this time home I can spend right time as what I had plan before going back on earlier June for university activity..

Monday, May 4, 2009

ProMinds


This is the first activity that I joined since I entering University.. Be ashamed of this because I always talk to myself that I will join university activity to enrich my knowledge and soft skills but empty boasting.. 4 days 3 night at Pusat Latihan dan Rekreasi Tebing Tinggi Segamat, Johor giving me a good experiences and profound knowledge that I will never realize..

A lot of activity conducted such as talk, jungle tracking, cooking, jogging and so on.. Each activity giving me a chance to learn new things.. Long time didn’t go camping already, lucky I still can managed to finish it although I sick.. Hehe..



Some memories still fresh in my minds.. Like first day there, I accidently strand the spaghetti (charge stuff) just after receive it.. Haha.. Such careless mistake draws an unforgettable memories, me and some members get punishment with sing a forgive song in malay (Maafkan Kami) for more than 30 minutes.. But we also dare to play around when singing.. Hehe..



Among the talk, I been attracted by a talk presented by Prof Sabaruddin that share a lots of facts and experiences in workplaces, give me a brief introduction and useful input.. In the camp, we been give a task for cook.. Fry chicken, vegetable soup, salted fish and rice is our menu.. I’m enjoying the process maybe because I seldom and long time didn’t cook already.. The food cooked is “eatable”.. We also asked to feed each other use hand a use spoon..



I can’t forget a new experience that I get from this camp that is I pumping more than 100 times and get blind scold from coach.. Haiz.. After that is the jungle tracking activity and end with activity plunge into water (biskut rendam air the tanpa gula).. My body damn pain when coming back because of the 100 times pumping.. T.T

Some of the activity mess up and not really nice.. A lot unhappy things happened but we have to endure.. It is hard for everyone to work together from different background but yet impossible mission.. All activities are press to Slogan “one for all, all for one” in other to bring up teamwork and so on.. Endure and tolerate is what I learn in this camp.. It is good to train ourself and grow up.. Wish that Minds 2009 everything smooth and success.. ^^

Friday, May 1, 2009

Happy Holidays


After suffering for several month, hohoho.. Time for holiday.. Hehe.. I can go back enjoy my holidays at home loo.. When think i can go home, i feel happy and hope can spend happy moments and stay close.. Hehe.. Take care my friends and happy holidays.. See you all soon.. ^^